The One With the Insanity

Current Mood: Confused
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Okay, I AM GOING NUTS HERE! Have you subscribed to the podcast yet? You should, it's a little easier to be honest when I don't get to proofread. Up and down. Up and down. This whole Branson bit is making me absolutely bonkers. I can think of nothing else. I am already planning ways to sneak up their some weekend. I don't know what I would do. It's just that I have never felt this strongly drawn to anything before in my life. Every minute of the day is fraught with me wanting to not be here.

Did I tell you that I didn't go to school yesterday? Well, remember how I told you in the podcast that I was worried about how I would go back to worthless classes (I know they're not really worthless. Work with me here.)? Turns out...I can't. I just couldn't make myself do it. I pictured me in all of these classrooms and I saw my depression growing with each passing period.

Eeks, that was a little more dramatic than I meant. Actually, this has been a remarkably good experience. God has been consistently showing me things in EXTREMELY overt ways. Does that sound cheesy? Okay, maybe it is, but it's true. He has been consistently reinforcing me in that "wow, this song came on the radio at exactly the right moment" way. Bible verses, devotionals...It's actually kind of eerie to have God speaking so clearly. Every time doubts start to creep in, the verse from Psalms pops into my head that says, "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."

Um....can you say most amazing promise ever?! This IS going to happen, and God is guiding me towards it.

Okeeday, all done typing. Must sleep now.