The One With the End of Day 3

Current Mood: Crushed

Let me start this off by saying that for the time being NO ONE is allowed to make jokes. I KNOW that I am a goober. I KNOW that it was a stupid pipedream that never would have ever happened. I KNOW that it's ridiculous that I am actually upset about this.


But, at the moment, I am. So please....hold off on making fun of me at least until tomorrow.






Two days ago, Bethany Joy Lenz got engaged.


I know that you are laughing right now. But, let me tell you something. I have absolutely no idea why, but I am really truly honest-to-goodness crushed. I was gonna write sad or upset, but crushed seems to be the descriptive term most applicable. Stop it! Stop laughing or smirking or whatever you are doing. Truth be told, I keep shaking my head and thinking, "Are you kidding me with this? It was a STUPID celebrity crush! This is absolutely stupid! You canNOT be this upset over something so retarded!"

But I am. Maybe it's because it's late or I have a lot on my mind or...I don't know, but I really feel like someone just broke up with me.

What a sad, pathetic little man I am. I know, I am acknowledging that, for some reason, my head is blowing this way out of proportion...I don't know. I am an idiot.


See...I have been sitting here trying to pretend like this is NOT part of my 30 day experiment, but I know that it is. She is engaged to a member of a band that she loves and I do not. Tonight, I decided to swing by the band's site (which I have only visited once before), when I came across today's post in their journal announcing the engagement.

The very day it is announced, I randomly type in a web address I haven't thought about in months? So, there you go. That's what happened on Day 3.

My crush crushed me.

My quandry is this...Why does a silly crush factor into this experiment?


Well, now that I have had time to sit and think...and write about it, I might be able to answer that. But to do so thoroughly, I must fill you in on some stuff. Namely, what attracted me to Joy in the first place...

See, she is....was....my ideal girl. I thought she was cute from the first episode of One Tree Hill that I watched, but only when read some of her interviews did I really place her on my crush list (I say list...it had one member). She is thoughtful, poised, funny, good-natured, passionate about books and music, and most of all - a Christian. And not just one of those Hollywood Christians. The fact that her character on One Tree Hill remained a virgin until she got married was not a coincidence. Her advice to girls on dating was to remember that they are worth pursuing and to wait for the guy who respects them and wants what is best for them. To go along with Jenn's chilvary post today...she demanded chilvary.

Anyway, my theory is that God wants me to find that person in real life...well, not real life...you know what I mean. And OBVIOUSLY, he does. That's what he wants for all of us. Oh....I am all typed out. I am going to sleep now and hopefully something tomorrow will cheer me up. I know, it's ridiculous that I need cheering up.


And I thought Day 3 was going to end up being boring.


OH! And you'll love this...All of sudden, it's like someone flipped a switch and now I love the band she's marrying into. Their music is really good and I will have to post some when I get the chance. Ridiculous. Just ridiculous.