Current Mood: Sad

Have you ever felt sad for no reason? It's not the someone in my family just died kind of sad. It's the kind of sad that, for some reason, you enjoy feeling. It's the kind of sad you might feel if you were walking through the deserted streets of a town on Christmas Eve. The lights are hanging from every building you pass. Snow covers the ground all around you and the only sound is the crunch of each step you take down the peaceful street. In the window of the house on your left, a family is sitting down to Christmas dinner. You can see a grandfather playfully plop a santa hat on the mousy-brown head of his granddaughter. A smile crosses your face as you move on, away from the quiet joy of one family to the subtle love of the couple spending their first Christmas together in the next house on the street. It's that kind of sad. A peaceful sadness that really isn't very sad at all. It's like the entire world has stopped and, just for one moment, you get to be the watcher - the one who sees all and is part of none.

So...ever felt that way? Sometimes I imagine that this is what it would feel like to be an angel - always watching, maybe subtly nudging here or there, but rarely interferring. I don't know...it
is the weirdest feeling of them all. Who ever heard of a sadness to be relished? It always makes me wonder what everyone is doing right at that moment. Of course, it's the middle of the night so my guess is that most people are asleep...but you know how I am with night.

Peacefully lonely.
Peacefully
Peace.